heartsong {etsy} |
Something strange has been happening at my art table lately. Strange, but good.
It goes something like this:
I pine for my art-making, miss it deeply. And then -- surprise! My sweet son surprises me with the gift of a nap, and I run for the art table.
I sit. I stand up, procrastinate, sit again. I shuffle things about.
what is this place? {art journal page} |
And then -- I begin. I dip my brush into paint or water and begin.
It feels awkward. I paint anyway.
All of a sudden, I am overcome by emotion. I want to lay my head and heart down against the painting and press my skin, my self, against it and into it. I want to cry. I do cry.
I keep painting.
peace {in progress} |
Something special is born on the canvas, something unexpected. The pieces, they feel raw and tender and bittersweet.
They are, I think, a picture of the insides of my heart.
I don't know how this is happening. But I am so glad that it is. It is a gift. Thank you, God.
you are not too much {etsy} |
I try not to hold this gift too tightly, because won't it stop being a gift if I expect it, demand something of it? I try and hold it as I would a bird, all earth-colored feathers, light and trembling and soft.
I don't know who I'm becoming. What my art is becoming. Everything feels broken today and these days.
What is this new thing?
I have no answers, hear no reply. So I keep painting, when I can, as I can.
after the storm {etsy} |
What is this new thing?
linking up with:
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<3 Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI think your painting is so beautiful and sincere. I love it! <3
ReplyDeleteI love your art, Beth, and your heart... all that you are becoming, all that you've been, and who you are today - beautiful!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful gift. I absolutely adore your artwork and your blog. Xo
ReplyDeleteGorgeous! What a very cool means of expressing yourself!
ReplyDeleteWonderful and whimsical! I love your backgrounds:)
ReplyDeleteAmazing girls!
ReplyDeletehappy PPF!
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FROEBELSTERNCHEN FROM AUSTRIA
ART-JOURNAL-JOURNEY
MOO-MANIA-CHALLENGE
Your girls are so lovely and so much emotion from them. Love your work. HPPF!
ReplyDeleteYour paintings are beautiful , so full of heart and soul. Thank you for sharing your gift and your thoughts.Happy PPF!
ReplyDeleteWhat beautiful words. It sounds so like you are breaking your heart open and bringing forth what needs to be. Happy PPF
ReplyDeleteIt's absolutely beautiful, is what it is. Don't question it for now.
ReplyDelete-Jenna stopdropandblog.com
When you figure it out, let me know. I've experienced the same thing since starting back up in 'll.
ReplyDeleteKeep painting Beth and all answers will come. Beautiful and delicate art. Thank you for sharing
ReplyDeleteSo wonderful, dear Beth!
ReplyDeleteIt is a joy to read about your artwork and to see this precious results. Be blessed and happe PPF
Erika
Love this. So happy for you to be living this right now.
ReplyDeleteI like your paintings very much. The wip "Peace" is so ethereal , soft and with feeling,a very beautiful piece.
ReplyDeleteIn time your questions will be answered, for now like Aga said....paint : )
fabulous post... your words and images come together so perfectly...xx
ReplyDeleteSweet, sweet, sweet! <3
ReplyDeleteAdorable, heartfelt, tender post of creativity dying to be born as it is, in all it's amazing glory!
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Beautiful art and beautiful words, Beth xx
ReplyDeleteA wonderful post! thoughtful words and beautiful art...just enjoy it! happy PPF!
ReplyDeleteI love the sweetness and the innocents of your girls... you have a very gentle style =D
ReplyDeleteyour son is so sweet to nap for you so you can have time to create all these wonderful paintings! They are lovely!!
ReplyDeleteSo stunning. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post and artwork. :)
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Happy PPF!!
Mary
Mixed-Media Map Art
I am thinking of buying a baby carrier/backpack (I don't know what they're called!) So that I can go paint with my bub. He sleeps but in tiny snatches during the day - I can't complain as it means he mostly sleeps through the night.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post :)
Thank you for stopping by mine the other day - you know, you are always more than welcome to come join us in searching out the positives on Rocking Fridays. Virginia's blog is where we all link up x
Aww... these are delightful & sweet paintings! :]
ReplyDeleteUsing your gifts every chance you get makes God smile. Lovely paintings. Blessings, Janet PPF
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