Thursday, April 25, 2013

In the Art Studio: The Insides of a Heart

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heartsong {etsy}

Something strange has been happening at my art table lately.  Strange, but good.

It goes something like this:

I pine for my art-making, miss it deeply.  And then -- surprise!  My sweet son surprises me with the gift of a nap, and I run for the art table.

I sit.  I stand up, procrastinate, sit again.  I shuffle things about.

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what is this place? {art journal page}

And then -- I begin.  I dip my brush into paint or water and begin.

It feels awkward.  I paint anyway.

All of a sudden, I am overcome by emotion.  I want to lay my head and heart down against the painting and press my skin, my self, against it and into it.  I want to cry.  I do cry.

I keep painting.

in progress
peace {in progress}

Something special is born on the canvas, something unexpected.  The pieces, they feel raw and tender and bittersweet.

They are, I think, a picture of the insides of my heart.

I don't know how this is happening.  But I am so glad that it is.  It is a gift.  Thank you, God.

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you are not too much {etsy}

I try not to hold this gift too tightly, because won't it stop being a gift if I expect it, demand something of it?  I try and hold it as I would a bird, all earth-colored feathers, light and trembling and soft.

I don't know who I'm becoming.  What my art is becoming.  Everything feels broken today and these days.

What is this new thing?

I have no answers, hear no reply.  So I keep painting, when I can, as I can.

after the storm
after the storm {etsy}

What is this new thing?

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30 comments:

  1. I think your painting is so beautiful and sincere. I love it! <3

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  2. I love your art, Beth, and your heart... all that you are becoming, all that you've been, and who you are today - beautiful!

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  3. What a beautiful gift. I absolutely adore your artwork and your blog. Xo

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  4. Gorgeous! What a very cool means of expressing yourself!

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  5. Wonderful and whimsical! I love your backgrounds:)

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  6. Your girls are so lovely and so much emotion from them. Love your work. HPPF!

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  7. Your paintings are beautiful , so full of heart and soul. Thank you for sharing your gift and your thoughts.Happy PPF!

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  8. What beautiful words. It sounds so like you are breaking your heart open and bringing forth what needs to be. Happy PPF

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  9. It's absolutely beautiful, is what it is. Don't question it for now.

    -Jenna stopdropandblog.com

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  10. When you figure it out, let me know. I've experienced the same thing since starting back up in 'll.

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  11. Keep painting Beth and all answers will come. Beautiful and delicate art. Thank you for sharing

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  12. So wonderful, dear Beth!
    It is a joy to read about your artwork and to see this precious results. Be blessed and happe PPF
    Erika

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  13. Love this. So happy for you to be living this right now.

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  14. I like your paintings very much. The wip "Peace" is so ethereal , soft and with feeling,a very beautiful piece.
    In time your questions will be answered, for now like Aga said....paint : )

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  15. fabulous post... your words and images come together so perfectly...xx

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  16. Adorable, heartfelt, tender post of creativity dying to be born as it is, in all it's amazing glory!

    Hugs Giggles

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  17. Beautiful art and beautiful words, Beth xx

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  18. A wonderful post! thoughtful words and beautiful art...just enjoy it! happy PPF!

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  19. I love the sweetness and the innocents of your girls... you have a very gentle style =D

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  20. your son is so sweet to nap for you so you can have time to create all these wonderful paintings! They are lovely!!

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  21. Beautiful post and artwork. :)
    ♥♥♥
    Happy PPF!!
    Mary
    Mixed-Media Map Art

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  22. I am thinking of buying a baby carrier/backpack (I don't know what they're called!) So that I can go paint with my bub. He sleeps but in tiny snatches during the day - I can't complain as it means he mostly sleeps through the night.

    Beautiful post :)

    Thank you for stopping by mine the other day - you know, you are always more than welcome to come join us in searching out the positives on Rocking Fridays. Virginia's blog is where we all link up x

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  23. Aww... these are delightful & sweet paintings! :]

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  24. Using your gifts every chance you get makes God smile. Lovely paintings. Blessings, Janet PPF

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