tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post2291709785939106801..comments2023-08-04T07:13:23.815-07:00Comments on Beth Morey, Writer + Artist: Fear vs. Trust: Babyloss & Creativity ConvergeBeth Moreyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17507326859684820743noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-65674990766540080682012-10-07T06:21:10.747-07:002012-10-07T06:21:10.747-07:00It's SO HARD to let go of that control. I'... It's SO HARD to let go of that control. I've heard so many women who tell themselves and others "I could only keep him/her alive while he/she was inside me" or how they feel they failed their child because they "couldn't" keep them alive. But it has so little to DO with us. You can do EVERYTHING "right" and your baby,<a href="https://www.rx247.net/Acetazolamide.html" rel="nofollow">Acetazolamide</a> who you and your husband loved and wanted and would have done anything for, still dies. Aroojhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16602651800447420870noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-31078797974030636172012-08-06T10:25:55.814-07:002012-08-06T10:25:55.814-07:00I've been catching up on your posts Beth...and...I've been catching up on your posts Beth...and this one...well it rings with REAL and TRUE. And like I told you before you are brave, and your courage at sharing the heart of it all, counting kicks, reminding us of our own God controlled lives, is a true blessing to me. You are a gift. I am praying for Jacob---and for you...Dea Moorehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18058589416716653614noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-30103867095430188842012-08-04T18:57:54.256-07:002012-08-04T18:57:54.256-07:00How much control do we have? This question has be...How much control do we have? This question has been tugging at me. Sending you and baby much love, Beth! Thank you for vulnerably sharing your journey.My Offeringhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12029981561906349714noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-67746947794916309832012-07-30T17:26:50.119-07:002012-07-30T17:26:50.119-07:00Reading this is like seeing all of me fears for my...Reading this is like seeing all of me fears for my future on a page.<br /><br />I am so desperate for a rainbow and yet so afraid of being so vulnerable again.<br /><br />I hope you find some balance between creating and kick counting.<br /><br />Lisa<br />http://dear-finley.blogspot.comAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11156015722355587810noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-22085553931093318692012-07-29T06:13:19.202-07:002012-07-29T06:13:19.202-07:00What powerful words. Your art and words are heali...What powerful words. Your art and words are healing to me, let them be healing to you. xoxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-8754621045021970152012-07-28T20:04:27.708-07:002012-07-28T20:04:27.708-07:00It is in His hands. All in His hands. I am sure yo...It is in His hands. All in His hands. I am sure you are doing all you can. Praying that He will give you peace during these moments.Jennifer {Studio JRU}https://www.blogger.com/profile/01426877302534891809noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-84227848129285335362012-07-28T15:26:20.615-07:002012-07-28T15:26:20.615-07:00Yet another inspiring post Beth! I came across thi...Yet another inspiring post Beth! I came across this youtube video by an artist called B. Reith. If you can't get the link it is called B Reith Tidbit. Take a look and listen to what he says about the talents and gifts that God has given to him!<br /><br />http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXY-2L4AA_8&feature=fvwrel<br /><br />Be blessed.The Artist In Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12842085236108762744noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-47126237905197541542012-07-28T09:49:31.969-07:002012-07-28T09:49:31.969-07:00hi stopping by from artists in blogland. really l...hi stopping by from artists in blogland. really like the texture going on in this piece.! happy creatingLiliansArthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08714237931079054167noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-12138359176389984662012-07-27T22:22:35.641-07:002012-07-27T22:22:35.641-07:00Beth, I have never experienced being pregnant, but...Beth, I have never experienced being pregnant, but I'm a very anxious for what concerns children. I can see, anyway, that you are making great pregresses in your introspection. Just make art because it relaxes you and visualize yourself with your baby in your arms could be great ways to dissolve anxiety. Wish you all the best!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11365682628904153667noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-37070816986008810762012-07-27T19:55:57.735-07:002012-07-27T19:55:57.735-07:00Beth, so glad you can process all of what you are ...Beth, so glad you can process all of what you are feeling...it seems that you are in the midst of having the "art of letting go" being formed between God's gentle, knowing hands...so much good in these comments - I hope and pray that you feel totally in His embrace as you face each twinge of anxiety - love that you are hanging on to that Philippians passage!Cindyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17157428756230617777noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-80925280670378204402012-07-27T12:47:48.177-07:002012-07-27T12:47:48.177-07:00Oh Beth, this is beautiful and heartbreaking and c...Oh Beth, this is beautiful and heartbreaking and courageous. I thank you... thank you thank you thank you... for sharing your open raw heart with us. Sending love.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-7196044667742638902012-07-27T12:38:32.219-07:002012-07-27T12:38:32.219-07:00praying, praying, praying. be gentle with yoursel...praying, praying, praying. be gentle with yourself.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13929668949379387864noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-15735140284212190312012-07-27T12:24:08.407-07:002012-07-27T12:24:08.407-07:00No matter how many times people tell you or you te...No matter how many times people tell you or you tell yourself, I think a part of you will always feel like you did something "wrong". Even though you know you didn't do anything wrong with Eve and you are NOT doing anything wrong with Jacob. It's SO HARD to let go of that control. I've heard so many women who tell themselves and others "I could only keep him/her alive while he/she was inside me" or how they feel they failed their child because they "couldn't" keep them alive. But it has so little to DO with us. You can do EVERYTHING "right" and your baby, who you and your husband loved and wanted and would have done anything for, still dies. While smokers and alcoholics and drug addicts and fifteen-year-olds have perfectly healthy children. They do everything "wrong" and still they get the wonderful gift of a child.<br /><br />I'm just babbling I guess. I just want you to be gentle with yourself. I know you're still going to have a lot of panicky moments and days, I just want you to have at least that many hopeful moments and days, too. The hope is the fun part. Terrifying, too, I know. But also fun.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18361179434552499467noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-41473499498334174442012-07-27T12:21:29.718-07:002012-07-27T12:21:29.718-07:00Oh, I can't even imagine, Beth. I have lost tw...Oh, I can't even imagine, Beth. I have lost two babies, but long before I ever felt the first kick. Praying, PRAYING for your heart, for the Lord to overwhelm you with His peace, and for Jacob to arrive alive and well and grow into a beautiful boy and man who will bring you joy!Sadee Schillinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07823888257043169951noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-67424683154632648212012-07-27T11:59:33.986-07:002012-07-27T11:59:33.986-07:00BIG GIANT HUGS sweetie. Try painting your anxiety ...BIG GIANT HUGS sweetie. Try painting your anxiety into your work. As a fellow artist sometimes we have to make those dark pieces of art that we may not share with the world just to help our spirits process the feelings. Make a painting about the guilt you feel. Make a painting about the unknown outcome. Make a painting about Eve. Make a painting about the cautious anticipatory joy. Make a painting about Jacob. If you truly pour yourself into these works the will be some of your best, they will ease some of your fear, and they will help you let go just a bit. I love you, and Eve, and Jacob. Every day I pray that he finds his way into your arms safely.Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08331168422471244204noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-8608708702582188122012-07-27T11:53:02.198-07:002012-07-27T11:53:02.198-07:00I felt exactly the same way when I was pregnant wi...I felt exactly the same way when I was pregnant with my rainbow. I also counted kicks and panicked the whole time. Like you I had feelings of regret that I had not been so diligent when I was pregnant with my son. If only I had, maybe he would have lived. I think it's normal considering what we have been through. <br /><br />Even if it's not, it was my reality and yours. I was sure each day that this would be the day I lost her. Normal or not, I lived in constant fear. I wish I could give you some advice on how to manage your fear. I even hosted a blog hop on my blog where BLM's shared their strategies for managing the fear. But at the end of the day, you won't be sure of anything until the day your baby is born and lets out that beautiful loud cry. <br /><br />I've been a follower on twitter but somehow I wasn't following your blog. But now I'm following you here as well. Wishing you the best of luck.My New Normalhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03482513767849843084noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-29963569794049856582012-07-27T11:34:48.506-07:002012-07-27T11:34:48.506-07:00I love your honesty, Beth. Love to you in the wee...I love your honesty, Beth. Love to you in the weeks ahead.kisses2heavenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03995801382654870337noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-18950898309279185092012-07-27T11:32:56.413-07:002012-07-27T11:32:56.413-07:00Everything you are saying seems so honest and hear...Everything you are saying seems so honest and heart-spoken, and perfectly normal I think. Unfortunately that panic of getting wrapped up in a project and not remembering when he kicked will last after Jacob comes home. It's the curse of being a BLM with a rainbow. They fall asleep while nursing, they sleep a little longer then normal, all kinds of things make you slightly panic. It's all the same though, you know you are not in control and no matter how much you try to be, that fear is always there. <br /><br />Not trying to be a Debbie-downer, would rather prepare you for feelings that might not pass after Jacob comes home. I think you are doing an amazing job at keeping it all together while you wait out your rainbow reaching earth. You are an inspiration!Stephaniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11786905242114408886noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-16589120607004326342012-07-27T11:24:25.533-07:002012-07-27T11:24:25.533-07:00Oh sweet girl, my heart goes out to you. I know o...Oh sweet girl, my heart goes out to you. I know of anxiety, I know of sorrow and loss and fear, but I do not know YOUR kind of fear and anxiety and it must be so terrible and scary for you! Preaching the scripture to those who are scared and hurt do not really help at the time, because those of us who know the Lord know the Word, but sometimes it just isn't enough is it? We know He's there. We KNOW He's in control of it ALL. Every breath we take, every breath our unborns take. Every. Single. Moment. We know that, yet, we feel fear. We want to control the outcome of our moments. We feel guilt when our moments turn out wrong. Turn out tragic. My older brother died 6 years ago of a brain tumor, and I still sometimes tell the Lord it should have been me. Me, the screw up. The single one. The one without a family forced to go on without their loved one. Survivor guilt. Mother guilt. Life's guilt! But there is no guilt for those who trust in Him, because He is the ultimate controller!! How good it is to also know that He understands our fear, our doubts, our scared moments, and He carries us even when we forget He's there. You know what I think? I think you should buy Jacob his clothes, his toys. You should start painting with him right there with you! Include him in every picture. Write him the story of his sister. Because I believe that when his mama is content and safe, he feels content and safe. Safe in the arms of our loving and faithful Savior. Always! In everything. Praying for you Beth, it will be okay. It will.<br />Love, MargoAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095265928930417153.post-31600422295475255212012-07-27T11:03:35.193-07:002012-07-27T11:03:35.193-07:00I do know exactly where you're coming from. Ke...I do know exactly where you're coming from. Keep being creative. Keep writing. Keep counting kicks. And most importantly, keep living in between it all. xoxojana0926https://www.blogger.com/profile/00462693853290762330noreply@blogger.com